In the past few weeks I've realized how stressful inevitability can be. It's ironic considering a large part of my decision to go to Korea was my need to not plant my feet down anywhere; yet anyway. I'm not getting cold feet per say, but the definiteness of the next twelve months is pressing down on me more so than ever. I've been doing my best to just enjoy my last week in the states, but it's so close now, that I can't truly spend my days in leisure. I now hate running errands with a passion. Every minute I spend doing something, I wonder if it would be spent better doing something else (even now, I should be doing laundry!) I've gotten so angry with the fact that I can't just snap my fingers and go. I will have to get organized and with the help of my family and friends, pack everything up. No small task, but putting it off only makes it harder. So, no more days at the beach, no more long lunches, no more movie dates with my parents... just being together, and packing. The reality is that even though it's changing, life isn't going to stop just because I'm moving to the other side of the world. Even if I'd like it to.
Peace,
Erica
Peace,
Erica
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